I fear IT

I'm running out of breath

 

I can't believe its so hard to breathe

 

My hearts pounding in my chest

 

As I wonder if IT found me

 

I hide under the covers and pretend I'm invisible

 

Then I turn around and IT is still there

 

I scream and pray IT would just go away

 

I'm running and running but IT is

 

Right behind me

 

I've been running from this thing for 5 years now

 

I stop running and decide to face my fears

 

Once and for all

 

As I stand face to face to what has caused me

 

So much misery and pain

 

I stop

 

I look deeper and deeper into IT's eyes

 

Than I realize that IT is me.

 

You know my name but not my story
You know what I've done but not what I've been through.

Addiction

I'm lying on my bedroom floor.
Searching for images imprinted in the ceiling.
My eyes unfocused; my thoughts blank and unheard of.
My body is motionless and pinned.
I am physically unable to force myself upward and walk a straight line.
I need to sleep to end this high.
It has gone for too long and lost its bliss.
I am drained.
I know this emptyness isn't worth the euphoric experience.
Or is it?
I am indecisive because I know I'll do it again.
This is my sickness.
The ugly forbidden disease that is slowly picking at the frayed edges of my life.
Eventually it will conquer me.
I tell myself it's gotten out of control.
But my senses tell me I don't care enough to stop.
My money, emotions, my lessening brain activity, are creeping into a deadly mouse trap.
I am enticed by this temptation at every corner.
Enslaved by this drugs shackles, I am ADDICTED.

Love is a Jackal

Love is the Holy Grail

It is ceased to be

Love is a flesh wound

A reminder not to do it again

Except love is heroin

It is addicting and euphoric

Love is like cancer

It is untreatable

Love is high maintenance

Like a salt water fish tank

Love is an office park without any trees

It is corporate and cold

Love is a swing set

It will eventually rust and break

Love is a jackal

It comes from hell

Love has the bark of a beast

But is in fact dangerous

Love is an egg

9 times out of 10 it will crack or rot

Love is bitter and dumb

But it is my sugar plum

Love is awful

But I love it.